Solitude

I've been facing chronic sleep problems of late.

Last few days, I laid in bed at 1 am. 

I finally managed to sleep sometime between 4 am-5 am and woke up at 6 am - 7 am for the 8 am class.

The worst thing is, it's not from lack of trying to sleep.

I keep replaying the worst-case-scenario at night.

I'm so close to it, yet so far.

I need your hidayah, Ya Rabb. I need that quiet spirit that used to help me stride. I need that ability to smile at anything.

I miss the me who used to say, "Try me".

I miss the old me.